My favourite photo of us - How the years have flown.
so I felt maybe if I wrote it down and you read it, giving me a chance to explain how important this time truly is to the rest of your life, you might understand what I am trying to say.
You are young, just 16, I know to you, that you feel all grown up. I understand, I did too when I was 16 but believe me my darling you have so much more life ahead of you. So much time to go out, to date, to stay up late and play online with your mates, so much time. This time though, these few weeks and that's all it is, a few weeks could you please humour me and show me that you are trying to study, that you are taking your examinations seriously ?
I am so proud of you, more than you could ever know. You have achieved far more already academically than I ever did, you have excelled and gained a scholarship to one of the best independent schools in Devon, all by yourself (well perhaps with a little help from me, but not much) Its your talents on the sports field and the classroom that have got you so far.
I want to support you, be there for you but I don't know how,if you won't let me in, if you shout at me and slam doors. I'm worried (its my job). The world is a very different place now from when I was 16. I joined the army after not taking my examinations seriously enough, with thoughts of travelling the world. Now you need a degree to be accepted into most regiments, just to be sent straight to war zones.
I've tried, I really have, not to put pressure on you, to leave you to work it out yourself. But I'm anxious now with the lack of revision at home. You've seen and heard maybe too much of the strain that dad and I have had over the last few years. I want so much more for you, I don't want you ever to have to struggle in the ways that we have.
Knowledge is power my darling. You can go anywhere, be anything.
I want you to fly, to be happy and free.
You are my pride, my joy, my No 1 Boy !
I love you.
Mum xxx
