Today we had some good news! Actually, not good news, GREAT news. My husband found out he was not on the list to be made redundant! In fact, he was offered regular overtime !
After the initial wave of relief I was actually just a teeny, tiny bit disappointed.
You see, while we were waiting to hear about the redundancies, we were coming up with all sorts of plans for what we would do if he got the chop. We have learned over the years how to survive on very little, without resorting to income support. We knew we would manage again. At 50 it is unlikely that he would have been able to get another "paid" job. We know from experience in the past how hard that one is.
We thought we might have a go at buying, restoring and selling shabby chic style furniture and accessories. I was quite looking forward to spending my days with my husband. We work well as a team, I waited a long time for the right man to come along and who would know it, that my first love whose heart I broke at 17 would walk back into my life 25 years later.
We have been through a lot of pain together, stuff that would break many marriages apart but we are still here, he supported me when I came home crying every day over a job I hated, actively encouraged me to set up my own little business and has never once told me I should get "a proper" job. He always has positive things to say when I make mistakes or am doubting myself, and all the time working himself 12 hour shifts in a job that is way below his capabilities, but which brings us a regular income.
Looks like I will have to hold onto my little dream a while longer.
This is for you my love