Although life was hard, it was so much simpler then !
I've just spent the last 3 days, sorting and listing stock for my Ebay shop and Website Clearance Sale . My husband is on the last day of five 12 hour shifts from 7 am to 7 pm. If we don't work, we don't earn money to support our family. There is no luxury of Bank Holidays or lazing around in front of the tv for us during the holiday season. I'm not complaining about this, its just a fact.
My worry is that during this time our 6 yr old twins have pretty much occupied themselves playing on computer and Wii games. They are happy, not fighting and more than content with all this "free" time. It's me that is having the terrible guilt trip ! They are on Christmas holidays, I should be playing with them, expanding their minds with creative play, taking them for long walks on the beach ( Excuse - I don't have the car to get there, hubby needs it for work).
I've been programmed to believe this is how it is, all around me great women are cooking, baking, crafting with their children. I look out of the window and see the family opposite. Mum, dad, boy, girl. Always sat at the table together or on the floor playing. You can see directly into their house from our bedroom (I'm not a peeping Tom honest!) Their TV is rarely on.
I feel pressure, pressure to succeed as a mum, at the job I do after giving up a well paid but hated position to persue my dream (always supported by my wonderful husband), as a wife.
It's 2011 - My resolutions :
to be a better mummy
to be a better wife
to not shout so much
to listen to my eldest son and trust him when he says he is doing revision for his G.C.S.E's in Jan and June this year !